A Bound Cupcake

Camp starts tomorrow. I’m nervous and excited and nervous. But, I can’t wait!!! I love lifeguarding, which is what my job is, but I’ll also be a camp counselor and I’ll be living with the kids (well, girls). I gave my nails a new paint job, a cutesy orange color, and with my hair now short, I hope I look more inviting then scary. 

Did I mention that I’ve never been to camp before? And that I hate spiders? (unless there’s a glass wall between us…))

Plus I’ve been informed to overpack…which…is proving difficult for me. Oddly. I’ll be at camp till the 8th, then it’s home for my graduation party, and back to camp. Don’t get to see the BF till the weekend after, he’ll  be on a float trip with his buddies from school. (He’s super stoked about it)). 

Now, back to packing and filling out (more) paperwork…xP 

Which puts me at 112 flat out. I know it’s not a lot but I’m proud of myself. I had lunch with a friend yesterday who told me that I look good and that I must of lost weight. I hadn’t seen her since a year or so ago, when I weighted a bit more and didn’t work out as much. Now, I have more muscle weight and less fat, but I’m not close to where I want to be. 

I’ve been keeping up with my running, working out, adjusting to being home before camp starts. I calculated out that if I lose a pound a week from now till the end of July, I’ll be down to 102. Not sure if that’s a good amount of weight to lose in ten weeks. I think if I manage to get to about 105 or so by the end of July and maybe bout a 100 by the end of August/middle of Sept that I’ll decide from there if I want to continue my ‘goal’ of weighting 95 that I recently found on my MFP. I’m mildly worried that it’ll make me too thin and I don’t mind weighting more with a lower body fat percentage. Which is something that I want more than a smaller number on the scale. 

Also, do you ever stop and think about how over sexualized most of the fitness posts on here are? It’s…be thin/fit/muscular because you can now pose for sexy shots in your underwear/swimsuit paired with heels. Cleavage too. Maybe I’m too modest. o.0